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let's do some numberings now again.

1) 3rd week of studies nia, stressed like cow. I wonder do cow really stress? hmmm
1a) this post i wrote last 2 weeks, it's already week 5. still work like a donkey
1b) and it's already holiday for my uni, my mates and I still need to go to uni everyday, including weekends to work. =.= 6 out of 20 of us.
2) can't even find a proper eraser
2a) i got myself one, and now it's lost again sienz
3) My friend's proton wira's really comfortable! miraculous. HAHA! local production still nice.
4) cannot breathe. @@
5) missing so much fun. the feeling sucks. People might just think that I'm lan c, don't want to meet up even it's a farewell dinner. =.=
6) being leader lagi sucks. - . - can just skip me next time.
7) sometimes I really think I'll just give up on this course. But well, u know I won't.
8) challenges sial.
9) let's not sleep. grrrrr
10) yo mates! let's get bersemangat!
11) i have too many thoughts in mine. or can say dissatisfactions.
12) I hate it when I see people open the car window and throw the rubbish outside just like that.
13) The "F" word seems like spreading like virus. I would stop. It doesn't feel so cool after all.
14) People might think I take things too seriously right now. But, it doesn't really look good when a girl keep saying all these words. JJ
15) I hate when a guy points his middle finger at me. =.= I can accept it when they just say some bad words all around, pointing at each other, but not at me. =.=
16) There's people who asked me to move out to stay outside just because i never drive and I should try to live without my family. Sometimes I think that they never think.
17) I know I'll have the day coming soon, living all alone. I don't need to rush that.
18) I felt blessed to stay with my family. Ya, still a mommy's girl. My family's just like my friends. We talked things out. Comforted each other. They are my energy all the time.
19) and i actually have the confidence to stay outside alone, managing my own stuffs, it's just that the time's not there yet. I bet my parents will feel lonely as well. sigh.
20) The other day my dad's sick, and the next day I had a nightmare. I hope it doesn't come true. But i know it will sure come to me one day, sooner or later.
21) Had too much nightmares.
22) I can eat a lot when I'm in stress.
23) I can't eat anything when I'm over stress.
24) I seriously don't know how should I plan my time.
25) CNY doesn't look like CNY. it's NYA, new year with assignments.
26) People just not willing to sacrifice their time and their little contribution, as if my time's all free to finish everything.
27) But i somehow feel lucky to have nicholas here as well, gah, both chinese, since the early of the semester, we both had been in all these shits together. : )
28) deep sigh. feeling sad but blessed and lucky as well.

IT'S OKAY! just a little shout out.

i seriously love my family. My mom gave me a hug this morning. hmmm. *tears*
touched. just because I asked her to comfort me yesterday on the phone. it's been such a long time, since i was just a kid, that my family hug me like this. awww. so sweet.

FULL OF ENERGY! GAHHHHH! BITE! ALIEN!